So . . . Sunday night was one of those nights. I've had them before and they're not always nights, but they seem to happen every year or so. Maybe they've happened more often; I can only remember a few. Fact is, I'm getting tired of them and the thoughts they bring. After the last one-which occured sometime in January 2007-I thought I was done with them. Well, on Sunday night, I was proven wrong.
I find myself just sitting around, wondering why they still occur. It really confuses me. I've made so many changes in my lifestyle over the years; everytime a change is made I think it will be the one that finally makes it all stop. At this moment, it hasn't fully gone away (even though it sometimes feels like it has). Where I was a couple of years ago is a lot worse than where I am now. I've come a long way . . . I'm proud of myself.
I love this song:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-bX2IyXejGk
Lauren is the most amazing person ever.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6Cq-S5hGkPo
Expect a video response to her's on Thursday. It will probably help explain this blog a little better.
2 comments:
I'm looking forward to this video. Because right now i'm confused. I think i might have to ask you about this over Skype.
Agreed with Shaun, I don't really understand. Like, you felt really useless and depressed? I feel like that sometimes late at night, when no one's really around to remind me why I'm here.
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