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Couldn't really think of a title for this, so "Untitled 1" it is! This post will mainly be an update and a rant. . . So let's go!

Orientation

I had college orientation at NDSU on the 10th. It . . . didn't go so well. For one thing, I felt an extremely negative fibe while I was there. I mean, the people running it were cheerful and all that, but it just felt wrong to be there. I ended up spending the whole day there, and I only really felt these feelings at the very start and at the very end.

Only the car ride home, I talked to my dad about college. I told him about my negative feelings, and I asked him what he'd think if I didn't go to college, or if I "packed my things and just left."

Well, he was a lot more "accepting" of it than I thought he would be. He tried to comfort me with the whole "you're a lot like I was" routine, but I could tell that his past self was nothing similar to my current self.

To tell the truth, I've never really been into the idea of going to college. I'm a smart kid, but it's always been kind of a thing where I've thought about not going more than actually going. I wouldn't mind not having an actual "career" my whole life. I mean, there are some things that I would love to do, but let's face it. Some of those I won't ever achieve. Writing? HA! That's a laugh. I wish I was good at writing-- but I don't think that I am. I do, however, think that I have good ideas. I just can't write them down and make an actual story out of it, ya know?

Psychology was really my thing until a couple months ago. My interest in that field is still there, but I just don't feel the urge to be a psychologist like I used to. I have the same mindset about psychology as I do other professions. There are things I'd be okay with being, and that I sometimes want to be, but I just don't have the drive to be them.

Maybe that's my problem. I don't have any drive.



Anyways, after orientation I talked to Joe, who helped me out a lot in deciding. H reminded me that I didn't have to always stay there, and that I might as well try out one year. So yeah, that's what I'm going to do now. I'm going to give it a shot for a year. Hopefully I'll enjoy the environment and my classes, etc.

If things go wrong and I don't fully enjoy them, I might do something along the lines of this:
A) End up spending every year in the Study Abroad program so I can see the world. I've always wanted to, and I don't think college would bother me so much if I were in another country, experiencing new things.
B) Just leaving. I don't know where I'd go, but I might just get up and go somewhere. I've always thought Iceland was a beautiful country, and that it would be fun to visit. Maybe I'll just move there for a while. I was looking at one of their colleges through the Study Abroad website thingy on the NDSU site, and it reminded me of how much I wanted to visit there. You can take free online classes for Icelandic, which I'm going to start soon.



And this is the end of my blog . . .
I always feel like no one will be able to understand my posts, because they always seem jumbled. Lulz, Joe.